I miss you Em

It's been awhile since I've talked to you Emily, but all I really have to say right now is that I miss you so much. I try to think of you as often as I can. I think of you when I get stressed and realize not to sweat the small stuff because you never would; I think of you anytime I pass a toll and smile as I remember your speech on your staunch belief on small acts of kindness; I think of you anytime I have the opporunity to perform small act of kindness for someone to brighten their day just like you would; and I'm also painfully reminded of you everytime something reminds me of the tragic events of April 16th and the monumental tragedy it is to lose such innocent and promising lives for no particular reason at all. Then it dawned me today that I have been thinking of all that you represented, but it was only today for the first time in awhile that I thought of YOU. What made you Emily. Your smile, your laugh, your warmth, your sense of humor, your intelligence, the way you lit a room with your very presence; everything that made me admire you in the past. And it hurt. It's hard Emily, because the only way I can get close to you now is through still pictures and memories. I still have your picture in the window of my car because it inspires me every time I look at it. But today, not only did it do that, but it also made me realize the time I spent with you, as fleeting as it was and the way you made me feel as a person. Anyway, I could go on and on (you know that I've always talked too much), but what I'm trying to say is I miss you Emily. More than words can express right now. I'm confident that we'll meet again someday, but I wish I didn't have to wait. The world is a little less warmer without you and today, I felt it. Please just drop us clues every now and then to let us know you are with us. We need it. Because as hard as it is to believe with the way I feel, there are a ton of people that miss you even more than I do. Be with us, Angel. I'll never forget you.