"I really do believe you can change the world" ~Emily
My relationship with Emily was more of quality and not quantity. I considered a
good friend but we really didn't hang out that much. However, the times we did
hangout were always a brightspot of my day. I remember the first conversation
that brought me close to Emily was a trip when we went to founder's day at NC
State for PSP. We were having a heated discussion about the 2004 election (we
were a car full of democrats) and when we finished, Emily pointed out that
"friends should never discuss religion, sex, and politics". So of course we
moved on to talk about sex and then religion, lol. It was SO DEEP that we
actually had to video tape it! Then we always used to joke about how we almost
fiured out the meaning of life that night. That weekend was by far the most fun
weekend I've had with PSP. I learned a lot about Emily and her personality that
day, and from then on, I realized the uniqueness of her and her views on life.
The more I got to know Emily, the more amazed I was at what a special person she
was. After someone passes everyone always says the peson was "kind, caring, and
special", but I don't feel any such cliche words could do Emily enough justice,
because they fail to express how truly unique she was. Her outlook on life was
like no one else's I had ever known, and she truly inspired me more than she
knew.
The last meaningful conversation I had with Emily was about a week before she passed away at the toga party. I was DDing and she pulled me aside to talk to me about something very important. I was amazed to find out that I was only like the 2nd or 3rd person she told out of all her closest friends. She said she wanted to tell me because I was one of her best friends and I was touched because I had no idea she felt that way about me. Then, one of my friends interrupted our conversation and said something really ignorant in front of her. When he left, she had tears in her eyes and said how she hated being treated like an "overprivledged, white girl". She said "It wasn't my fault that I was born in a good situation and that's why I've spent my life trying to give back to people that don't have it as good as me". I told her that people tend to think like that and that, though her efforts are great, she really can't change the world singlehandedly. And then she told me, "I don't believe that. I really do believe you can change the world". When we finished that conversation, I actually thought to myself "that girl's view on life is absolutely perfect".
Every time I used to see Emily I would think of her accomplishments how great she was. Usually, you dont grasp how special a person is until you lose them, but it dawned on me that Emily wasn't anymore special to me when she died than when she was alive, being everytime I talked to her I would think to myself "I really have never met anybody like her. She is truly one of a kind". I know everything has been revealed to you now, Em, but I'm going to spend the rest of my days trying to figure out the meaning of life like we said we would 2 years ago on that road trip. And finally, one day, sister, we'll know it together...
The last meaningful conversation I had with Emily was about a week before she passed away at the toga party. I was DDing and she pulled me aside to talk to me about something very important. I was amazed to find out that I was only like the 2nd or 3rd person she told out of all her closest friends. She said she wanted to tell me because I was one of her best friends and I was touched because I had no idea she felt that way about me. Then, one of my friends interrupted our conversation and said something really ignorant in front of her. When he left, she had tears in her eyes and said how she hated being treated like an "overprivledged, white girl". She said "It wasn't my fault that I was born in a good situation and that's why I've spent my life trying to give back to people that don't have it as good as me". I told her that people tend to think like that and that, though her efforts are great, she really can't change the world singlehandedly. And then she told me, "I don't believe that. I really do believe you can change the world". When we finished that conversation, I actually thought to myself "that girl's view on life is absolutely perfect".
Every time I used to see Emily I would think of her accomplishments how great she was. Usually, you dont grasp how special a person is until you lose them, but it dawned on me that Emily wasn't anymore special to me when she died than when she was alive, being everytime I talked to her I would think to myself "I really have never met anybody like her. She is truly one of a kind". I know everything has been revealed to you now, Em, but I'm going to spend the rest of my days trying to figure out the meaning of life like we said we would 2 years ago on that road trip. And finally, one day, sister, we'll know it together...
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