Too long...

I can't believe its only been 6 months, Em, when it seems like forever. It bothers me that your laugh, your conversations, your smile, your very presence seems like a distant memory to me. I miss you everytime I look at the sky or see a sunset. I can only imagine the pain your absence causes the people that were close to you. But as distant as you may seem now, I feel you everyday and remembering how you lived your life so thoroughly really helps me through rough times. Quite honestly, this semester has been the toughest I've been through by far and your memory really has played a part in helping me deal with it. Thanks for the good times and the life lessons. I think my only regret is that I never expressed to you how much I admired you way before your death. I know you were only human like the rest of us, but you seemed to have everything so figured out and I'm trying to emulate your benevolent outlook on life. Giving back, random acts of kindness, experiencing the world, just being happy in general; these are things you taught me whether you knew it or not and, ironically, your absence in this world is making me more determined to live these principles all the time. You have no idea how many people you touched, Emily, but I can attest I was one of them. You taught me enough in two years to last me for life. Thanks, Emily. I have no doubt you are in a better place, so please look over your families and friends because its them who's truly suffering.. because we dont have you. Love you.